it was a sad day.
i asked him abt overseas trip he ever had w joys.
so they had went on a trip on cruise tgt.
tat was wat i wanted.
i really dunno if i shud stil think of gg cruise w him anymore.
it feels really terrible.
my heart hurts so much tdy.
besides that,
he actually said he feel that he failed as a bf whn we were talking abt the bah kut teh trip to jb.
and he cried.
seeing those tears pain me so much.
but from deep down my heart, i said the v true words, that he is the best bf, he is the best guy on earth. tho there may be better ppl out there, but i only want him, and i love him.
and i believe that's wat matters.
i love him, and he loves me.
he is my world and i want to be in this world, i want to die in the arms' of this world.
telling him those words frm my heart, i teared myself.
at this moment,
i realise how much he means to me,
and how much i love him.
im willing to do anything just for him.
yes, i mean my words.
i love him wholeheartedly.
i dun wan any other guys in my life.
and im gon commit myself to him completely.
i shall learn to bear w those pains and hurts, and not be wilful.
i will learn it evn tho its hard.
i will do my best that i can.

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